P. endless expressions of self

My 5 parcels cramped up my mailbox last week!

For the last wee bit of shopping for November, I am looking forward to that hot pink dress and nude heels 's arrival. No more splurging for the month of December, I promise. ;-)

Pretty much pumped up for the last track of the year. So many exciting events to look forward to. Especially our own house party for Christmas :) Bi is so excited because he is in charge of the guests list! But we are keeping it exclusive, so that we can enjoy, have fun and have a cosy celebration :)

My life is taking a turn and I am happy about the change.

I feel so encouraged by the support Bi & Jie is giving me.
Gonna work hard and be smart :) Be triple hardworking!

Heres a shout out before I go: (missing all of you!)

Angel
Sha
Mabel!!
Qunzheng
Kelvin

Out!

I simply love my pretty MAC.

Kayson kept asking me to let him use Photobooth to take photos. He took ALOT. We were giggling and laughing so loud in the room because he was quite amazed by the functions. My nephew is growing up so fast. Recently, he requested to borrow my PSP home to play. Jie allowed since its his holiday. Oh btw, he graduated from kindergarten already! He will be heading to primary school next year.

Just lately, he asked why is there an Apple of my laptop. Haha so cute!

What was etched deeply in my mind was me coaxing him to sleep when he was only 3 months old at our old house. He will be turning 6 this coming Friday, 27 November. Just last week, he reminded me that his birthday is coming and don't forget to get him a present. haha As for Kaylene, she is going to pre-nursery next year too. Still a naughty baby. My parents dote on her like CRAZY! She loves to come into my room and lie on my bed.. and give me that cheeky smile. She's a naughty baby.

Spent the weekend over at Bi. Played around while he studied hard for exams.
We are still eagerly waiting for the launch. When is it ever gonna come? :(

I seriously have to swear off online shopping.

Bi told me he has been watching my spending lately and I seemed to spend without hesitation.
Good or bad? Sometimes I just can't control. Its the URGE. My eyes are attracted to pretty stuffs!

Somehow, God has His ways of reminding me that no matter what happens, I am still in His every thought. So right now, what I have to do is buckle up and continue on in this spaceship.

:) Looking forward to a great week.

I have alot on mind but I don't know where to begin either.

Recently, certain issues crossed my mind. On friendship, kinship, love, relationship. Basically, those that we need to put in effort consistently to see it mature, grow and lasting through time, lasting through all the difficulties. I am trying to breathe and stand tall in the midst of 'unexpected bailout-friendship' which I am seriously, tired of.

The only thing that keeps me sane is, shopping? (or does it steal my sanity away?) I know it sounds shallow but yea, its my sanity pill. I need therapy all the time. Its what I do all the time. My heart will thumpthump when they see beautiful stuffs. Now that Bi is busy with exams, I have even more time for myself. Which I guess is good, for me to sort out my more than ever messed up life.

It is already the mid of November and come December, it will be the time of the year when everyone starts doing their 'reflection journal' This whole year is a year of heartaches and more heartaches.

I am really so thankful for Bi. He is the only person who is so sincere and thoughtful towards me. He is the restorative work in my life. He is the only person who will always put me before himself and the only person I can trust. He is the pillar of my life. He pulls me together when I am all haywired. I love our sundays together. Being potato couch and strolling down the central streets :)

That is why I am not giving up, not giving up on my life, not giving up on my future, not giving up because he is the only one who believes in me and that is, more than enough.

He is my sanity :)

There is so much to learn ever since I started work proper. Human relations, office politics, likes for fame & power, manipulations.. Enjoying my stint though :) with very fun loving colleagues :) I am missing school a whole deal. The classmates, lecturers, breaks, canteen food. Not forgetting the mad rush for exams and assignments, impromptu Q&As. I am missing it so much.. I wished I am 13 right now. 

Still can't chew after a week on braces. There are also ulcers which hurt. Feels weird having dry lips throughout the day no matter how much I moist them :( On a sidenote, I am feeling so much more healthier and happier after a month's off fast food since my extractions. Being on braces is helping me to stay healthy in a way. I 'drink' soup and 'eat' soup... Everything is so soupy. Gimme my myspicy.. laksa.. stingray.. lala.. ou rah.. char kway teow..

I forced my way through eating the sandwich from ToastBox and fries from Carl's Junioe :( Majorly Miserable (MM!)
I am loving ToastBox so much, beats Ya Kun hands down! I am somehow missing the Mee Sua...

Can't get my eyes and mouth off the junks.

The price to pay to look good is a huge and painful price. Extracted 8 tooth at one go, gonna be on braces next week! Okay, I know many people are gonna comment that there is absolutely nothing wrong with my teeth. But ... there is always a price just to stay on the loop of 'looking good' and undeniably, I fell victim to it. But trust me, congee and soup is not favourable to one's, the least, my appetite okay?

I will write about my 21st with BiBi soon, after I am done with all the transfer :) Feel so smiley dumby with Mac in my hands. Getting used to it though. Mom sold my old rusty laptop for $600 and the money is mine, what a great gain, ha! Kayson gave me a mini piglet after my extractions to add to my piglet family :)

Still very thankful of all that I have in life.

Always thankful for the most loving and doting boyfriend :)

Cosy Saturday spent. B & I had dinner with my Mom at Ajisen Ramen. My Mom wanted Sushi but I am not a fan of sushi hehe. Dinner inclusive of 2 tom yam ramen set (my fav!), soft shell & ebi mayo, Mom's teriyaki salmon set and a very weird convo with my Mom. I can't believed she said this:

Mom: "peggie can really eat alot"
B: "yea, I know long ago, got tricked"
Me: HARD STARE AT BOTH OF THEM
Mom: "you know she likes to eat abalone? she can eat alot" (weird laughs)
B: "yea, she told me before! eat many at one go"

She continued with the story of how I ate 8 abalone at one go.

Mom: "you know she can finish one LARGE pizza on her own?"
B: "yea, my friends say she can really eat"

So he told my Mom about Gordon's party, how much I ate! My Mom just laughed because she knows.. that I am a true blue big eater. muahaha

Mom: "so, you must really consider properly if you can afford to feed her 一辈子"
(continued with her annoying laughters and sinister smiles)


Basically a nice comfy dinner with Mom. Think my Mom is happy that we ate with her :)
It will be even more fun if Sis is back.. I miss her so so so so much :(

Its Sunday! I miss spending QT with Giddy so much! Boooo
Yeay! We are having a haircut later :)
PLUS, Uncle is gonna come visit me on Monday! I miss him!

I am happy :)

Time Check 453am

I can't get to sleep.

Left shoulderblade aching. I hate the aches, nothing but sleepless nights.

I want to burn all my clothes.

Time Check 513am

I took 10mins to process & type 3 sentences.

Happy weekend to all!

We had our date yesterday :) I love giddy pig! His silly antics are neverending yet I can't bear to be angry at him for long. Our dinner was a bento set I made. He was so surprised because the last time I cooked was almost a year ago. Scalded my poor little finger because of the splurting oil. I am just glad we both enjoyed it and didnt have diarrhea! Extra grace over it! Cakes at Cafe Cartel (50% off) after the movie.

Caught Time Traveller's Wife. A good film. Everyone should catch it. I cannot grasp or comprehend the emotions and energy of a woman waiting in between the frequent absences of her husband. A man who can't bring anything to his past or future, struggles to live an ordinary married life. I was tearing at some point. There is something we all can learn from this film.


Despite everything, her love for her husband is amazing.

Thankfulness. I am thankful for Gideon.
Thankful for his patience and love. His capacity for me is amazing.
Thankful that he is always around, whenever I need him.
Thankful that we are still so in love.. :)

I am once again encouraged and challenged to love and treasure our love relationship.
Treasure the present and embrace our future together. I love you Giddy :)

Wednesday was a day of pure feasting for me. I just couldn't stop. While eating, Grace was still reminding me of my 'diet plans' which I failed to keep. I am so afraid of being lumpy :( But I had major fun. Was out with a few of the team peeps then my very lovely trio. Food was so-so but company was the bomb. It all depends on who you are with!

After brunch at Cafe Cartel, we adjourned to ToastBox. I am loving ToastBox :) We had a fun time there with Saboteur as usual, our favourite card game! haha I love being a Saboteur. I don't mind being a gold digger actually.. the feeling of finding the gold is shiokness.